Wednesday is my birthday party.
I'm going to go ahead and call it my Epic Birthday Party. On account of:
1. Third year at the same restaurant.
2. Best martinis EVER.
3. I invited WAY too many people.
4. BECAUSE I LOVE TO PARTY.
On account of the crippling anxiety I promised my friends on Sunday that I would "take it easy" until my birthday so I could CHILL THE FUCK OUT. Taking it easy means only watching Olympics and hanging out with Carolyn. It means staying in my comfort zone and no shenanigans involving stores, other people, my car, ANYTHING.
BUT, I had to install the TiVo because a) it arrived last week and it's just been sitting in our living room while it could be being awesome, and b) TiVo emailed me and told me they had a very! special! Olympics! plugin! TiVo totally let me down. It's installed now, after a trip to Radio Shack that made me cry, and I still have two things to return to two different stores, and GUESS WHAT?? The freaking plugin thingy doesn't work. I totally tried to research it on the TiVo forums and everything. Boooo.
Fail, Abigail, fail on the chilling out.
After THAT I knew that I needed to scale back some more so I canceled my birthday hair cut. Which sounds crazy, right? I mean, if you're feeling upset, doesn't being pampered seem like the appropriate solution? Sadly, it took me all the way until today to realize this would so not be the case. Evidence: me being undecided and flip-flop-y about what I want to do with my hair. Usually (always) I'm like, "do whatever you want, I'm tired of it!" The fact that I'm having thoughts (multiple thoughts!) other than this is bad news.
I HATE feeling this way. So, after all my birthday festivities are over, I am going into quarantine. No more parties, no more fun, no more stores. I might even have to make myself stop planning fun too. Because I am doing this to myself. Sigh.
Ending up note: I AM SO EXCITED FOR THE PARTAY.
Comments
I get like that too. Taking a break from planning might help. Either way, I hope you enjoy your party!
Thanks, sweets.
Posted by: sizzle | August 12, 2008 11:13 PM
You should just not think about it and have fun. Also, the hair thing makes sense, you don't want to mess with that on your birthday. This one time, on my high school graduation, I totally got this horrible haircut and ended up crying in Barnes & Noble before I could get up the nerve to go home and try to fix it.
Also, P.S. expect a package, and I apologize in advance if you don't like it. It's just something silly and useless and kinda gross. Happy birthday (in four days).
Awwwwww! Sad high school Ashley! HUG.
Thankfully, I can still have FUN despite being CRAZY so it's not like my birthday is ruined or anything. I just wish I could be a little more relaxed.
Posted by: Ashley | August 13, 2008 1:07 AM
I just read your comment to Ashley, and I totally agree, because if fun and crazy were mutually exclusive, I wouldn't have fun a day in my life.
I hope you have a wonderful birthday party! Yay! Yay for best martinis ever!
Thank you, co-crazy.
Posted by: mysterygirl! | August 13, 2008 8:34 AM
I'm totally the same re: haircuts.
Enjoy your birthday celebrations! Hooray!
The same like you don't care or the same like you're crazy?
Posted by: Jennie! | August 13, 2008 10:44 AM